What If…

I was watching my DVD ng Nip/Tuck, and there’s this one episode sa Season 2 where Julia, the wife of one of the doctors, went into surgery and got this epiphany about her life and her thought of having committed so many mistakes in her life. Like not finishing med school, marrying the wrong guy and choosing to be a plain housewife instead of a career woman. She got to see how her life would have turned out if she just went through with how she planned her life back then, and not being forced to do stuff. But she still ended up unhappy, even unhappier with how her life turned out. That is why I wonder, what if I also had that chance to get to see what I would have been like if I chose not to live this life I’m living now. First of all, what if I didn’t shifted course and I actually finished Math in UP? I would have been working abroad as a teacher and taking my masters degree in some university in Florida. That was actually the plan my Tita Belen had for me. Then what if me and Suzzane didn’t actually broke up when we were in second year college and continued our relationship like nothing ever happened? I think we could have been married now, with a kid, but not that happy because we were still too young. And the fact that I am living abroad would just split us anyway. Actually, those are the two things that I think affected my life. Everything revolves around those two important decisions, and frankly, I don’t regret making those decision. Shifting to Art Studies made me realize that there is more to life than just money. There is beauty all around us, and we just all have to learn how and where to look. Being away from Suzzane all those years actually made me realize that I can never live without her. I love her so much, even more now than when we were still young. All those trials we had were just challenges we took to make our relationship stronger.

With that, I would like to end this post with some words I got from Nip/Tuck. It goes something like, Changes should not be done in our lives’ circumstances, but rather on oneself to truly have a change.